A few people have told me to start a blog so they could hear about my life. I was slash am very wary to do so because 1. I typically don’t have anything interesting to say – South Africa or not 2. I tend to try to be funny and/or profound when I write, both of which tend to fail [at least other people think so…I always think I’m funny] 3. I’m worried people will stop emailing me if I have a blog because all the info they’ll care to know will be right there – sad times. Alas, here I am, writing a blog. Meh.
For those of you who don’t know, I’m in Cape Town, South Africa for the semester studying at the University of Cape Town. I don’t know how I got here or why I’m here. It was a whirlwind of applications, acceptances, decision making, plane rides, orientation, registration. And now here I am. Halfway around the world. Knowing full well I’m here in this place for a reason – a very specific reason – and not knowing when or if I’ll ever fully know what that reason is. But here I am. Wanting to learn. Ready to grow. Desperate to not come home the same person I was when I left – in a good way of course.
As of Tuesday, I’ve officially been here for 2 weeks. I can’t decide if it feels like I’ve been here for a minute or for a year. I think there are moments where I feel both. Sometimes the prospect of being here for 22 more weeks, away from family and the community at school I have come to call family over the past two and half years, is daunting and exhausting to think about. At other times, I remember that I am in Africa. I am in Africa. My life is beginning to carve its path into my future.
Anyway, I don’t know where this blog will go – or if it will even continue after a few posts. I want to stray away from a blog that’s a comprehensive list of my daily activities. Who knows what this will be. I tend to be a rambler when I get behind a computer and don’t really have anything to say. So…enjoy :)
"Desperate to not come home the same person I was when I left – in a good way of course."
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel. I'm desperate not to be the same person I was--without ever leaving SC--before I leave SC.
Love you, Chels--and your rambles :).