Fifth-of-a-life crisis

The title of this post is kind of the story of my life...it sort of is and it sort of isn't. I have this weird thing where most of the time I'm easy going, carefree, everything-will-work-out. But occasionally I'll have bursts of "whats going on in my life?!"

I just finished my last final which means a few things: my semester abroad is officially done, I am officially a senior in college, life has officially started rushing at me. I apologize to whomever is reading this and can't help but think, "get over yourself 20 year old." And you'd be right, to an extent...I'm actually 21 now. But seriously. Here I am. With life in front of me and not really knowing where to go from here. I get to stay in Cape Town for 6 more weeks - way to think ahead last semester me when I bought a later return ticket - and I can't imagine having to leave right now - it'd feel very unfinished, at least for me. I know plenty of people I studied abroad with that were quite ready for the semester to be done [sorry if you're reading this and are part of the wanting-to-stay-longer group].

So here I am. With nothing to do for at least 3 weeks. I can't remember the last time I had time like this. It's incredible and a little daunting. I hate looking back on time and seeing it wasted. But I have time. Time to think and pray and continue exploring this heart-breakingly beautiful place and its people and time to figure out my life. Or not figure it out. I don't actually need a plan. I tend to do better without a plan anyway. I tend to be a play-it-by-ear kind of girl.

I'm back at my flat so here's where I end [I may or may not have typed this as a draft on my phone as I walked home...yep]. I have the most beautiful view of the mountain [Table Mountain/Devil's Peak] from my flat and as I stand here looking at this crazy incredible creation, I'm reminded that Cape Town, and life for that matter, is my oyster [although not really because I hate that phrase slash don't really understand what it means]. So here's to my next two months - planless, purposeful,  and wonderful :)